Hashire MEROSU

Dazai Osamu



MEROSU wa gekido shita. Kanarazu, kano jachi bougyaku no ou o nozokanakereba naranu to ketsui shita. MEROSU ni wa seiji ga wakaranu. MEROSU wa, mura no bokujin de aru. Fue o fuki, hitsuji to asonde kurashite kita. Keredo mo jaaku ni taishite wa, hito ichibai ni binkan de atta. Kyou mimei MEROSU wa mura o shuppatsu shi, no o koe yama koe, juuri hanareta kono SHIRAKUSU no machi ni yatte kita. MEROSU ni wa chichi mo, haha mo nai. Nyoubou mo nai. Juuroku no, uchiki na imouto to futarigurashi da. Kono imouto wa, mura no aru richigi na ichi bokujin o, chikajika, hanamuko to shite mukaeru koto ni natte ita. Kekkon shiki mo majika na no de aru. MEROSU wa, sore yue, hanayome no ishou yara shukuen no gochisou yara o kai ni, harubaru machi ni yatte kita no da. Mazu, sono shinajina o kai atsume, sore kara miyako no ooji o burabura aruita. MEROSU ni wa chikuba no tomo ga atta. SERINUNTJIUSU de aru. Ima wa kono SHIRAKUSU no machi de, sekku o shite iru. Sono tomo o, kore kara tazunete miru tsumori nano da. Hisashiku awanakatta no da kara, tazunete iku no ga tanoshimi de aru. Aruite iru uchi ni MEROSU wa, machi no yousu o ayashiku omotta. Hissori shite iru. Mou sude ni hi mo ochite, machi no kurai no wa atarimae da ga, keredo mo, nan da ka, yoru no sei bakari de wa naku, machi zentai ga, yake ni sabishii. Nonki na MEROSU mo, dandan fuan ni natte kita. Michi de atta wakai shuu o tsukamaete, nani ka atta no ka, ninen mae ni kono machi ni kita toki wa, yoru de mo minna ga uta o utatte, machi wa nigiyaka de atta hazu da ga, to shitsumon shita. Wakai shuu wa, kubi o futte kotaenakatta. Shibaraku aruite rouya ni ai, kondo wa motto, gosei o tsuyoku shite shitsumon shita. Rouya wa kotae nakatta. MEROSU wa ryoute de rouya no karada o yusubutte shitsumon o kasaneta. Rouya wa, atari o habakaru teion de, wazuka kotaeta.

"Oosama wa, hito o koroshimasu."

"Naze korosu no da."

"Akushin o daite iru, to iu no desu ga, dare mo sonna, akushin o motte wa orimasenu."

"Takusan no hito o koroshita no ka."

"Hai, hajime wa oosama no imoutomuko sama o. Sore kara, gojishin no oyotsugi o. Sore kara, imouto sama o. Sore kara, imouto sama no okosama o. Sore kara, kougou sama o. Sore kara, kenshin no AREKISU sama o."

"Odoroita. Kokuou wa ranshin ka."

"Iie, ranshin de wa gozaimasenu. Hito o, shinzuru koto ga dekinu, to iu no desu. Kono goro wa, shinka no kokoro o mo, outagai ni nari, sukoshiku hade na kurashi o shite iru mono ni wa, hitojichi hitori zutsu sashidasu koto o meijite orimasu. Gomeirei o kobameba juujika ni kakerarete, korosaremasu. Kyou wa, rokunin korosaremashita."

Kiite, MEROSU wa gekido shita."Akireta ou da. Ikashite okenu."

MEROSU wa, tanjun na otoko de atta. Kaimono o, seotta mama de, nosonoso oujou ni haitte itta. Tachimachi kare wa, junra no keiri ni hobaku sareta. Shiraberarete, MEROSU no kaichuu kara wa tanken ga detekita no de, sawagi ga ookiku natte shimatta. MEROSU wa, ou no mae ni hikidasareta.

"Kono tantou de nani o suru tsumori de atta ka. E! " boukun DJIONISU wa shizuka ni, keredo mo igen o motte toitsumeta. Sono ou no kao wa souhaku de, miken no shiwa wa, kizami komareta you ni fukakatta.

"Machi o boukun no te kara sukuu no da." to MEROSU wa warubirezu ni kotaeta.

"Omae ga ka? " oy wa, binshou shita."Shikata no nai yatsu ja. Omae niwa, washi no kodoku ga wakaranu."

"Iuna! " to MEROSU wa, ikiritatte hanbaku shita."Hito no kokoro o utagau no wa, mottomo hazubeki akutoku da. Ou wa, tami no chuusei o sae utagatte orareru."

"Utagau no ga, seitou no kokorogamae na no da to, washi ni oshiete kureta no wa, omae tachi da. Hito no kokoro wa, ate ni naranai. Ningen wa, motomoto shiyoku no katamari sa. Shinjite wa, naranu." boukun wa ochitsuite tsubuyaki, hotto tameiki o tsuita."Washi datte, heiwa o nozonde iru no da ga."

"Nan no tame no heiwa da. Jibun no chii o mamoru tame ka." kondo wa MEROSU ga choushou shita."Tsumi no nai hito o koroshite, nani ga heiwa da."

"Damare, gesen no mono."ou wa, satto kao o agete mukuita."Kuchi dewa, donna kiyorakana koto demo ieru. Washi niwa, hito no harawata no okusoko ga miesuite nara nu. Omae datte, ima ni, haritsuke ni natte kara, naite wabitatte kikanuzo."

"Aa, ou wa rikou da. Unuborete iru ga yoi. Watashi wa, chan to shinuru kakugo de iru no ni. Inochigoi nado kesshite shinai. Tada, " to ii kakete, MEROSU wa ashimoto ni shisen o otoshi shungi tamerai, "Tada, watashi ni nasake o kaketai tsumori nara, shokei made ni mikkakan no nichigen o ataete kudasai. Tatta hitori no imouto ni, teishu o motasete yaritai no desu. Mokka no uchi ni, watashi wa mura de kekkon shiki o agesase, kanarazu, koko e kaette kimasu."

"Baka na." to boukun wa, shiwagareta koe de hikuku waratta."Tondemonai uso o u wai. Nigashita kotori ga kaette kuru to iu no ka."

"Sou desu. Kaette kuru no desu." MEROSU wa hisshi de ii hatta."Watashi wa yakusoku o mamorimasu. Watashi o, mikkakan dake yurushite kudasai. Imouto ga, watashi no kaeri o matteiru no da. Sonna ni watashi o shinjirarenai nara ba, yoroshii, kono machi ni SERINUNTJIUSU to iu sekku ga imasu. Watashi no muni no yuujin da. Are o, hitojichi to shite koko ni oite ikou. Watashi ga nigete shimatte, mikkakan no higure made, koko ni kaette konakattara, ano yuujin o shimekoroshite kudasai. Tanomu, sou shite kudasai."

Sore o kiite ou wa, zangyaku na kimochi de, sotto hokusoenda. Namaiki na koto o iu wai. Douse kaette konai ni kimatteiru. Kono usotsuki ni damasareta furi shite, hanshite yaru no mo omoshiroi. Sou shite migawari no otoko o, mikkame ni koroshite yaru no mo kimi ga ii. Hito wa, kore da kara shinjirarenu to, washi wa kanashii kao shite, sono migawari no otoko o haritsuke ni shoshite yaru no da. Yononaka no, shoujikimono to ka iu yatsubara ni un to misetsukete yaritai mono sa.

"Negai o, kiita. Sono migawari o yobu ga yoi. Mikkame niwa nichibotsu made ni kaette koi. Okuretara, sono migawari o, kitto korosu zo. Chotto okurete kuru ga ii. Omae no tsumi wa, eien ni yurushite yarou zo."

"Nani, nani o ossharu."

"Haha. Inochi ga daiji datta ra, okurete koi. Omae no kokoro wa, wakatte iru zo."

MEROSU wa kuchioshiku, jidanda funda. Mono mo iitaku nakunatta.

Chikuba no tomo, SERINUNTJIUSU wa, shinya, oujou ni mesareta. Boukun DJIONISU no menzen de, yoki tomo to yoki tomo wa, ninen buri de aiouta. MEROSU wa, tomo ni issai no jijou o katatta. SERINUNTJIUSU wa mugon de unazuki, MEROSU o hishi to dakishimeta. Tomo to tomo no aida wa, sore de yokatta. SERINUNTJIUSU wa, nawa utareta. MEROSU wa, sugu ni shuppatsu shita. Shoka, manten no hoshi de aru.

MEROSU wa sono yoru, issui mo sezu juuri no michi o isogi ni isoi de, mura e touchaku shita no wa, akuruhi no gozen , hi wa sude ni takaku nobotte, murabito tachi wa no ni dete shigoto o hajimete ita. MEROSU no juuroku no imouto mo, kyou wa ani no kawari ni hitsujigun no ban o shiteita. Yoromeite aruite kuru ani no, hirou konpai no sugata o mitsukete odoroita. Sou shite, urusaku ani ni shitsumon o abiseta.

"Nan demo nai." MEROSU wa muri ni waraou to tsutometa."Shi ni youji o nokoshite kita. Mata sugu shi ni ikanakerebanaranu. Asu, omae no kekkon shiki o ageru. Hayai hou ga yokarou."

Imouto wa hoo o akarameta.

"Ureshii ka. Kirei na ishou mo katte kita. Saa, kore kara itte, mura no hitotachi ni shirasete koi. Kekkon shiki wa, asu da to."

MEROSU wa, mata, yoroyoro to arukidashi, ie e kaette kamigami no saidan o kazari, shukuen no seki o totonoe, mamonaku yuka ni taorefushi, kokyuu mo senu kurai no fukai nemuri ni ochite shimatta.

Me ga sameta no wa yoru datta. MEROSU wa okite sugu, hanamuko no ie o otozureta. Sou shite, sukoshi jijou ga aru kara, kekkon shiki o ashita ni shite kure, to tanonda. Muko no bokujin wa odoroki, sore wa ikenai, kochira niwa mada nan no shitaku mo dekiteinai, budou no kisetsu made mattekure, to kotaeta. MEROSU wa, matsu koto wa dekinu, douka ashita ni shite kure tamae, to sarani oshite tanonda. Muko no bokujin mo gankyou de atta. Nakanaka shou da ku shite kurenai. Yoakeke made giron o tsudukete, yatto, dou ni ka muko o nadame, sukashite, tokifuseta. Kekkon shiki wa, mahiru ni okonawareta. Shinryou shinpu no, kamigami e no sensei ga sunda koro, kurokumo ga sora o ooi, potsuri potsuri ame ga furidashi, yagate shajiku o nagasu you na ooame to natta. Shukuen ni resseki shite ita murabitotachi wa, nanika fukitsu na mono o kanjita ga, sore demo, meimei kimochi o hikitate, semai ie no naka de, munmun mushiatsui no mo korae, youki ni uta o utai, te o utta. MEROSU mo, manmen ni kishoku o tatae, shibaraku wa, ou to no ano yakusoku o sae wasureteita. Shukuen wa, yoru ni haitte iyoiyo midare hanayaka ni nari, hitobito wa, soto no gouu o mattaku ki ni shinakunatta. MEROSU wa, isshou konomama koko ni itai, to omotta. Kono yoi hitotachi to shougai kushite ikitai to negatta ga, ima wa, jibun no karada de, jibun no mono dewa nai. Mamanaranu koto de aru. MEROSU wa, wagami ni muchiuchi, tsuini shuppatsu o ketsui shita. Asu no nichibotsu made niwa, mada juubun no toki ga aru. Chotto hitonemuri shite, sore kara sugu ni shuppatsu shiyou, to kangaeta. Sono koro niwa, ame mo koburiri ni natte iyou. Sukoshi demo nagaku kono ie ni guzu guzu to domatte itakatta. MEROSU hodo no otoko nimo, yahari miren no jou to iu mono wa aru. Koyoi azen, kanki ni yotte iru rashii hanayome ni chikayori,

"Omedetou. Watashi wa tsukarete shimatta kara, chotto gomen koumutte nemuritai. Me ga sametara, sugu ni shi ni dekakeru. Taisetsu na youji ga aru no da. Watashi ga inakute mo, mou omae niwa yasashii teishu ga aru no da kara, kesshite sabishii koto wa nai. Omae no ani no, ichiban kirai na mono wa, hito o utagau koto to, sore kara, uso o tsuku koto da. Omae mo, sore wa, shitteiru ne. Teishu to no aida ni, donna himitsu demo tsukutte wa naranu. Omae ni iitai no wa, sore dake da. Omae no ani wa, tabun erai otoko na no da kara, omae mo sono hokori o motte iro."

Hanayome wa, yumemi gogochi de unazuita. MEROSU wa, sore kara hanamuko no kata o tataite,

"Shitaku no nai no wa otagaisama sa. Watashi no ie nimo, takara to itte wa, imouto to hitsuji dake da. Hoka niwa, nani mo nai. Zenbu ageyou. Mou hitotsu, MEROSU no otouto ni natta koto o hokotte kure."

Hanamuko wa momite shite, terete ita. MEROSU wa waratte murabito tachi nimo eshaku shite, enseki kara tachisari, hitsuji koya ni mogurikonde, shinda you ni fukaku nemutta.

Me ga sameta no wa akuru hi no usuakari no koro de aru. MEROSU wa haneoki, namusan, nesugoshita ka, iya, mada mada daijoubu, kore kara sugu ni shuppatsu sureba, yakusoku no kokugen made niwa juubun ma ni au. Kyou wa zehi tomo, ano ou ni, hito no shinjitsu no sonsuru tokoro o misete yarou. Sou shite waratte haritsuke no dai ni agatte yaru. MEROSU wa, yuuyuu to mijitaku o hajimeta. Ame mo, ikubun koburi ni natte iru yousu de aru. Mijitaku wa dekita. Sate, MEROSU wa, burun to ryouude o ookiku futte, uchuu, ya no gotoku harideta.

Watashi wa, koyoi, korosareru. Korosareru tame ni hashiru no da. Migawari no tomo o sukuu tame ni hashiru no da. Ou no kannei jachi o uchiyaburu tame ni hashiru no da. Jashiranakereba nara nu. Sou shite, wata wa korosareru. Wakai toki kara meiyo o mamore. Saraba, furusato. Wakai MEROSU wa, tsurakatta. Ikudo ka, tachidomari sou ni natta. Ei, ei to oogoe agete jishin o shikarinagara hashitta. Mura o dete, no o yokogiri, mori o kuguri nuke, tonarimura ni tsuita koro niwa, ame mo yami, hi wa takaku nobotte, sorosoro atsuku natte kita. MEROSU wa hitai no ase o kobushi de harai, koko made kureba daijoubu, mohaya kokyou e no miren wa nai. Imoutotachi wa, kitto yoi fuufu ni naru darou. Watashi niwa, ima, nan no kigakari mo nai hazu da. Massugu ni oujou ni ikitsukeba, sore de yoi no da. Sonna ni isogu hitsuyou mo nai. Yukkuri arukou, to mochimae no nonkisa o torikaeshi, sukina kouta o ii koe de utaidashita. Burabura aruite niri iki sanri iki, sorosoro zenritei no nakaba ni toutatsu shita koro, futte waita sainan, MEROSU no ashi wa, hatato, tomatta. Miyo, zenpou no kawa o. Kinou no gouu de yama no suigenchi wa hanran shi, dakuryuu toutou to karyuu ni atsumari, mousei ikkyo ni hashi o hakai shi, doudou to hibiki o ageru dakuryuu ga, koppa mijin ni hashigeta o hane tobashite ita. Kare wa bouzen to, tachisukunda. Achikochi to nagame mawashi, mata, koe o kagiri ni yobi tatete mita ga, keishuu wa nokorazu nami ni sarawarete kage naku, watashimori no sugata mo mienai. Nagare wa iyoiyo, fukure agari, umi no you ni natte iru. MEROSU wa kawagishi ni uzukumari, otokonaki ni nakinagara ZEUSU ni te o agete aigan shita."Aa, shizume tamae, arekuruu nagare o! Toki wa kokukoku ni sugite ikimasu. Taiyou mo sude ni mahiru doki desu. Are ga shizunde shimawanu uchi ni, oujou ni ikitsuku koto ga dekinakattara, ano yoi tomodachi ga, watashi no tame ni shinu no desu."

Dakuryuu wa, MEROSU no sakebi o seserawarau gotoku, masumasu hageshiku odorikuruu. Nami wa nami o nomi, maki, aoritate, sou shite toki wa, kokuikkoku to kiete iku. Ima wa MEROSU mo kakugo shita. Oyogikiru yori hokani nai. Aa, kamigami mo shouran are! dakuryuu nimo makenu ai to makoto no idai na chikara o, ima koso hakki shite miseru. MEROSU wa, zanbu to nagarere ni tobikomi, hyappiki no daija no you ni notauchi arekuruu nami o aite ni, hisshi no tousou o kaishi shita. Manshin no chikara o ude ni komete, oshi yose uzumaki hikizuru nagare o, nan no koreshiki to kakiwake kakikiwake, mekura meppou shishi funjin no hitonoko no sugata niwa, kami mo aware to omotta ka, tsuini renbin o tarete kureta. Oshinagasare tsutsu mo, migoto, taigan no jumoku no miki ni, sugaritsuku koto ga dekita no de aru. Arigatai. MEROSU wa uma no you ni ookina douburui o hitotsu shite, suguni mata saki o isoida. Ikkoku to iedomo, muda niwa dekinai. Hi wa sude ni nishi ni katamuki kaketeiru. Zeizei arai kokyuu o shinagara touge o nobori, nobori kitte, hotto shita toki, totsuzen, me no mae ni ittai no sanzoku ga orideta.

"Mate."

"Nani o suru no da. Watashi wa hi no shizumanu uchi ni oujou e ikanakereba naranu. Hanase."

"Dokkoi hanasanu. Mochichimono zenbu o oite ike."

"Watashi niwa inochi no hoka niwa nanimo nai. Sono, tatta hitotsu no inochi mo, kore kara ou ni kureteyaru no da."

"Sono, inochi ga hoshii no da."

"Sate wa, ou no meirei de, koko de watashi o machibuse shite ita no da na."

Sanzokutachi wa, mono mo iwazu issei ni konbou o furiageta. MEROSU wa hyoi to, karada o orimage, asuka no gotoku midika no hitori ni osoi kakari, sono konbou o ubaitotte,

"Kinodoku da ga seigi no tame da! " to mouzen ichigeki, tachimachi, sannin o naguritashi, nokoru mono no hirumu suki ni, sassa to hashitte tooge o kudatta. Ikki ni touge o kakeorita ga, sasuga ni hirou shi, orikara gogo no shakunetsu no taiyou ga matomoni, katto tette kite, MEROSU wa ikudo to naku memai o kanji, kore dewa naranu, to ki o torinaoshite wa, yoroyoro ni, sanpo aruite, tsuini, gakuri to hiza o otta. Tachiagaru koto ga dekinu no da. Ten o aoide, kuyashinaki ni nakidashita. Aa, a, dakuryuu o oyogikiri, sanzoku o sannin mo uchitaoshi idaten, koko made toppa shite kita MEROSU yo. Shin no yuusha, MEROSU yo. Ima, koko de, tsukarekitte ugokenakunaru to wa nasakenai. Aisuru tomo wa, omae o shinjita bakari ni, yagate korosare nakereba naranu. Omae wa, kitai no fushin no ningen, masashiku ou no omoutsubo da zo, to jibun o shikatte miru no da ga, zenshin naete, mohaya imomushi hodo nimo zenshin kanawanu. Robou no sougen ni gorori to nekorogatta. Shintai hirou sureba, seishin mo tomoni yarareru. Mou, dou demo ii to iu, yuusha ni funiaii na futekusareta konjou ga, kokoro no sumi ni sukutta. Watashi wa, kore hodo doryoku shita no da. Yakusoku o yaburu kokoro wa, mijin mo nakatta. Kami mo shouran, watashi wa seiippai ni tsuutomete kita no da. Ugokenaku naru made hashitte kita no da. Watashi wa fushin no yakara dewa nai. Aa, dekiru koto nara watashi no mune o tachiwatte, shinku no shinzou o ome ni kaketai. Ai to shinjitsu no ketsueki dake de ugoite iru kono shinzou o misete yaritai. Keredomo watashi wa, kono daiji na toki ni, sei mo kon mo tsukita no da. Watashi wa, yokuyoku fukou na otoko da. Watashi wa, kitto warawareru. Watashi no ikka mo warawareru. Watashi wa tomo o azamuita. Tochuu de taoreru no wa, hajime kara nani mo shinai no to onaji koto da. Aa, mou, dou demo ii. Kore ga, watashi no sadamatta unmei nano kamo shirenai. SERINUNTJIUSU yo, yurushite kure. Kimi wa, itsu demo watashi o shinjita. Watashi mo kimi o, azamukanakatta. Watashitachi wa, hontou ni yoi tomo to tomo de atta no da. Ichido datte, kurai giwaku no kumo o, otagaii mune ni yadoshita koto wa nakatta. Ima datte, kimi wa watashi o mushin ni matteiru darou. Aa, matte iru darou. Arigatou, SERINUNTJIUSU. Yoku mo watashi o shinjite kureta. Sore o omoeba, tamaranai. Tomo to tomo no aida no shinnjitsu wa, kono yo de ichiban hokorubeki takara nano da kara na. SERINUNTJIUSU, watashi wa hashitta no da. Kimi o azamukuku tsumori wa, mijin mo nakatta. Shinjite kure! watashi wa isogi ni isoi de koko made kita no da. Dakuryuu o toppa shita. Sanzoku no kakomi kara mo, sururi to nukete ikki ni touge o kakeorite kita no da. Watashi da kara, dekita no da yo. Aa, kono ue, watashi ni nozomi tamau na. Hotte oite kure. Dou demo, ii no da. Watashi wa maketa no da. Darashi ga nai. Waratte kure. Ou wa watashi ni, chotto okurete koi, to mimiuchi shita. Okuretara, migawari o koroshite, watashi o tasukete kureru to yakusoku shita. Watshi wa ou no hiretsu o nikunda. Keredomo, ima ni natte miru to, watashi wa ou no iu mama ni natte iru. Watshi wa, okurete iku darou. Ou wa, hitori gaten shite watashi o warai, sou shite koto mo naku watashi o houmen suru darou. Sou nattara, watashi wa, shinu yori tsurai. Watshi wa, eien ni uragiri mono da. Chijou de mottomo, fumeiyo no jinshu da. SERINUNTJIUSU yo, watshi mo shinu zo. Kimi to issho ni shinasete kure. Kimi dake wa watashi o shinjite kureru ni chigai nai. Iya, sore mo watashi no, hitori yogari ka? aa, mou isso, akutokusha to shite ikinobite yarou ka. Mura niwa watashi no ie ga aru. Hitsuji mo iru. Imouto fuufu wa, masaka watashi o mura kara oidasu you na koto wa shinai darou. Seigi da no, shinjitsu da no, ai da no, kangaete mireba, kudaranai. Hito o koroshite jibun ga ikiru. Sore ga ningen sekai no jouhou dewa nakatta ka. Aa, nani mo kamo, bakabakashii. Watashi wa, minikui uragirimono da. Dou to mo, katte ni suru ga yoi. Yannurukana. Shishi o nagedashite, utouto, madoron de shimatta.

Futo mimi ni, sensen, mizu no nagarareru oto ga kikoeta. Sotto atama o motage, iki o nonde mimi o sumashita. Sugu ashimoto de, mizu ga nagarete irurashii. Yoroyoro okiagatte, miru to, iwa no sakeme kara konkon to, nanika chiisaku sasayaki nagara shimizu ga wakidete iru no de aru. Sono izumi ni suikomareru you ni MEROSU wa mi o kagameta. Mizu o ryoute desukutte, hitokuchi nonda. Hou to nagai tameiki ga dete, yume kara sameta you na ki ga shita. Arukeru. Ikou. Nikutai no hirou kaifuku to tomoni, wazuka nagara kibou ga umareta. Gimu suikou no kibou de aru. Wagami o koroshite, meiyo o mamoru kibou de aru. Shayou wa akai hikari o, kigi no ha ni touji, wa mo eda mo moeru bakari ni kagayaiteiru. Nichibotsu made niwa, mada ma ga aru. Watashi o, matte iru hito ga aru no da. Sukoshi mo utagawazu, shizuka ni kitai shite kurete iru hito ga aru no da. Watashi wa, shinjirarete iru. Watashi no inochi nazo wa, mondai dewa nai. Shinde owabibi, nado to ki no ii koto wa itte orarenu. Watashi wa, shinrai ni mukuinakereba naranu. Ima wa tada sono hitokoto da. Hashire! MEROSU.

Watashi wa shinrai sarete iru. Watashi wa shinrai sarete iru. Senkoku no, ano akuma no sasayaki wa, are wa yume da. Warui yime da. Wasurerete shimae. Gozou ga tsukarete iru toki wa, fui to anna warui yume o miru mono da. MEROSU, omae no haji dewa nai. Yahari, omae wa shin no yuusha da. Futatabi tatte hashireru you ni natta dewa nai ka. Arigatai! watashi wa, seigi no shi to shite shinu koto ga dekiru zo. Aa, hi ga shizumu. Zunzun shizumu. Matte kure, ZEUSU yo. Watashi wa umareta toki kara shoujiki na otoko de atta. Shoujiki na otoko no mama ni shite shinasete kudasai.

Michi yuku hito o oshi noke, hane tobashi, MEROSU wa kuroii kaze no you ni hashitta. Nohara de shuen no, sono shuen no mattadanaka o kakenuke, shuen no hitotachi o gyouten sase, inu o ketobashi, ogawa o tobikoe, sukoshi zutsu shizundeyuku taiyou no, juubai mo hayaku hashitta. Ichidan no tabibito to satto surechigatta shunji , fukitsu na kaiwa o komimi ni hasanda."Imagoro wa, ano otoko mo, haritsuke ni kakatte iru yo." aa, sono otoko, sono otoko no tame ni watashi wa, ima konna ni hashitte iru no da. Sono otoko o shinasete wa naranai. Isogege, MEROSU. Okurete wa naranu. Ai to makoto no chikara o, ima koso shirasete yaru ga yoi. Fuutai nanka wa, dou demo ii. MEROSU wa, ima wa, hotondo zennratai de atta. Kokyuu mo dekizu, nido, sando, kuchi kara chi ga fukideta. Mieru. Haruka mukou ni chiisaku, SHIRAKUSU no shi no tourou ga mieru. Tourou wa, yuuhi o ukete kirakira hikatte iru.

"Aa, MEROSU sama." umeku you na koe ga, kaze to tomo ni kikoeta.

"Dare da." MEROSU wa hashirinagara tazuneta.

"FIROSUTORATOSU de gozaimasu. Anata no otomodachi SERINUNTJIUSU sama no deshi de gozaimasu." sono wakai sekku mo, MEROSU no ato ni tsuite hashirinagara sakenda."Mou, dame de gozaimasu. Muda de gozaimasu. Hashiru no wa, yamete kudasai. Mou, ano kata o otasuke ni naru koto wa dekimasen."

"Iya, mada hi wa shizumanu."

"Choudo ima, ano kata ga shikei ni naru tokoro desu. Aa, anata wa osokatta. Ourami moushimasu. Hon no sukoshi, mou chotto demo, hayakatta nara! "

"Iya, mada hi wa shizumanu." MEROSU wa mune no harisakeru omoi de, akaku ookii yuuhi bakari o mitsumete ita. Hashiru yori hoka wa nai.

"Yamete kudasai. Hashiru no wa, yamete kudasai. Ima wa gojibun no oinochi ga daiji desu. Ano kata wa, anata o shinjite orimashita. Keijou ni hikidasaretemo, heiki de imashita. Ousama ga, sanzan ano kata o karakattemo, MEROSU wa kimasu, to dake kotae, tsuyoi shinnen o mochitsuduketeiru yousu de gozaimashita."

"Sore da kara, hashiru no da. Shinjirareteiru kara hashiru no da. Ma ni au, ma ni awanu wa mondai de nai no da. Hito no inochi mo mondai de nai no da. Watashi wa, nan da ka, motto osoroshiku ookii mono no tame ni hashitte iru no da. Tsuite koi! FIROSUTORATOSU."

"Aa, anata wa ki ga kurutta ka. Sore dewa, un to hashiru ga ii. Hyotto shitara, ma ni awanu mono demo nai. Hashiru ga ii."

Iu ni ya oyobu. Mada hi wa shizumanu. Saigo no shiryoku o tsukushite, MEROSU wa hashitta. MEROSU no atama wa, karappo da. Nanihitotsu kangaete inai. Tada, wake no wakaranu ookina chikara ni hikizurarete hashitta. Hi wa, yurayura chiheisen ni bosshi, masa ni saigo no ippen no zankou mo, kie you to shita toki, MEROSU wa hayate no gotoku keijou ni totsunyuu shita. Ma ni atta.

"Mate. Sono hito o koroshite wa naranu. MEROSU ga kaette kita. Yakusoku no toori, ima, kaette kita." to oogoe de keijou no gunshuu ni mukatte sakenda tsumori de atta ga, nodo ga tsuburete shiwagareta koe ga kasuka ni deta bakari, gunshuu wa, hitori to shite kare no touchaku ni ki ga tsukanai. Sude ni haritsuke no hashira ga takadaka to taterare, nawa o utareta SERINUNTJIUSU wa, jojo ni tsuriagerarete yuku. MEROSU wa sore o mokugeki shite saigo no yuu, senkoku, dakuryuu o oyoida you ni gunshuu o kakiwake, kakiwake,

"Watashi da, keiri! korosareru no wa, watashi da. MEROSU da. Kare o hitojichi ni shita watashi wa, koko ni iru! " to, kasureta koe de seiippai ni sakebinagara, tsui ni haritsukedai ni nobori, tsuriagerarete yuku tomo no ryouashi ni, kajiri tsuita. Gunshuu wa, doyomeita. Appare. Yuruse, to kuchiguchi ni wameita. SERINUNTJIUSU no nawa wa, hodokareta no de aru.

"SERINUNTJIUSU." MEROSU wa me ni namida o ukabete itta."Watashi o nagure. Chikara ippai ni hoo o nagure. Watashi wa, tochuu de ichido, warui yume o mita. Kimi ga moshi watashi o nagutte kurenakattara, watashi wa kimi to houyou suru shikaku sae nai no da. Nagure."

SERINUNTJIUSU wa, subete o sasshita yousu de unazuki, keijou ippai ni narihibiku hodo ototakaku MEROSU no migihoo o nagutta. Nagutte kara yasashiku hohoemi,

"MEROSU, watashi o nagure. Onaji kurai ototakaku watashi no hoo o nagure. Watashi wa kono mikka no aida, tatta ichido dake, chirato kimi o utagatta. Umarete, hajimete kimi o utagatta. Kimi ga watashi o nagutte kurenakereba, watashi wa kimi to houyou dekinai."

MEROSU wa ude ni unari o tsukete SERINUNTJIUSU no hoo o nagutta.

"Arigatou, tomo yo." futari douji ni ii, hishito dakiai, sore kara ureshinaki ni oioi koe o hanatte naita.

Gunshuu no naka kara mo, kyoki no koe ga kikoeta. Boukun DJIONISU wa, gunshuu no haigo kara futari no sama o, majimaji to mitsumete ita ga, yagate shizukaka ni futari ni chikaduki, kao o akaramete, kou itta.

"Omaera no nozomi wa kanatta zo. Omaera wa, washi no kokoro ni katta no da. Shinjitsu to wa, kesshite kuukyo na mousou dewa nakatta. Douka, washi o mo nakama ni iretekure maika. Douka, washi no negai o kikiirete, omae ra no nakama no hitori ni shite hoshii."

Dotto gunshuu no aida ni, kansei ga okotta.

"Banzai , ousama banzai ."

Hitori no shoujo ga, hi no MANTO o MEROSU ni sasageta. MEROSU wa, magotsuita. Yoki tomo wa, ki o kikasete oshiete yatta.

"MEROSU, kimi wa, mappadaka ja nai ka. Hayaku sono MANTO o kiru ga ii. Kono kawaii musumesan wa, MEROSU no ratai o, minna ni mirareru no ga, tamaranaku kuchioshii no da."

Yuusha wa, hidoku sekimen shita.

(kodensetsu to, SHIRURERU no shi kara.)


(2006.4.29)


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